愛關，我在心里反復默念著，每個人都期望得到愛~~~，愛是一個理想~，小的時候，會把愛幻想為特別美麗幸福的生活，女孩子把自己想象成帶蝴蝶結的小女神~~~，男孩子把自己想象成，帶蝴蝶結的穿白襯衣的小王子~~~。那種幻想，每個人都有過，但那不是真正的生活，所以卡通。長大以后我才發(fā)現(xiàn)，生活一點都不浪漫，如果浪漫一定是有心人創(chuàng)造出來的，我們每天掙錢，勞累，辛苦，抱怨，罵人，恨，其實就是恨我們不如別人浪漫。
有錢就浪漫嗎？
那么沒錢就浪漫嗎？
可能我會這么說，我們先不要說浪漫，說過得比較有意思，可能更靠近現(xiàn)實，我的那些特別可愛的大哥，大姐們，會說，這說得比較對。因為用浪漫這個詞，會掩蓋生活的本質，他們會說，那是小孩子的想法，你已經不是小孩了。我同意。所以我會說，有意思很有意思。很浪漫不一定有意思，有虛假的成分，不完全真實。
如果，很較真的說，關愛這個詞也有問題，那關愛，就是把愛關起來了。這不對。愛，關不住。那愛關，是不是愛就是一個關口？看你有沒有勇氣闖關。
晚上的時候，我在燈下看書，喝了一點自己做的魚湯。我過去不會做菜，也不會做湯，從小到大都是吃現(xiàn)成的，吃飯成為了一個關口，在飯店吃，沒關。在朋友家吃，沒關。自己吃，有關。應該說叫吃關，飯關。又不能不過這個關，沒吃得會死人的。
愛真的會成為關口嗎？肯定有人會說是。因為愛一個人不容易，付出愛也不容易。不是嘴上說說就可以過的事情。過關，本身就是一種代價，有蒙混過關的人，有騙關的人，有砸門闖關的人，也有乘著黑偷偷溜關的人。其實過關很簡單，真情，真心，真誠。敢于承擔和付出，就過了。
愛關不住。
Loving Care
Loving care, I murmured to myself. Everyone likes to be loved and cared. Love is a fantasy. When I was little, love to me, means beauty and happiness. Girls would fantasize themselves to be fairies wearing butterfly ties, and boys would fantasize to be princes wearing white shirts. Everybody has that fantasy of their lives, but it’s not real life. When I grow up, I found life is not romantic at all, if any, it must be created by some romantic person. We work our butt off every day only to make a living. We go to work, we complain, we curse, and we regret. Only because we find our life is as romantic as other’s.
But, can wealth alone make one’s life romantic?
And can’t you be romantic without having a lot of money?
Maybe romance sounds bit far away for most common people. It sounds more realistic to live an interesting life than a romantic life. Romance sometimes, is disguised. People would say it’s childish thing, and I am not a child any more. I agree. But, I would say, keeping an interest or interests makes life more interesting. Being romantic is not necessarily interesting, and sometimes, it’s make-believe.
I may sound critical, but loving care has some problem in itself, too. Without love, will you still care for someone? This sounds unnatural, I know. You may love to care for someone even without love, but the thing is, do you care to care?
After dinner, I sat under the lamp light reading. I made myself fish soup for dinner. I had known nothing about cooking when I was younger, whether simple as a salad or a soup. I was never worried about what to eat as I would always have something to eat. At home, mom cooks. Going to a friend’s place, they always prepare everything. Let alone dining in a restaurant. I seem never have been bothered with cooking unless I need to eat by myself, like tonight. But eating is important, most important, like love in one’s life.
But can love be a pass to another one’s life? Some may say yes. Love does not come easy. But love on the lips is easy. But to gain someone’s heart, you need to show love, and to love. And there is no shortcut. To get a pass is simply as easy as to love with your heart, and to be truthful to your own heart. If you care to give and give up, you will get it, simply.
Love, IS simple.
【編輯：陳耀杰】
